|frost on the window pane|
~life up close~
things are moving around here. subtle, but profound shifts that leave you with that "Ooooh, now i get it" feeling.
good stuff. but it means change.
i'm not sure of the future (if any) of this space. i'm struggling with the purpose of it...ie. what was my original intention and where is it now? i am afraid that it has become a place to justify how we choose to live, rather than simply a chronicle of our days. it's just how it's become to feel whenever i think of posting.
i also want to be mindful of my children; of their journey, of how their future-selves will look back on this.
i feel less moved to document our lives with photos, strictly for the purpose of blogging here. i see how that works so beautifully for some families...and i love to visit with them...but it doesn't seem to capture who we are.
how do i capture the wild wind and the rain, and the fast-beating hearts of my faery children? because these are the things that are the pulse of my family....the feral days of paint and poetry...tomatoes for breakfast, the fire of our disagreements and the vast, vast love of our forgiving.
i look at the photographs and i know there is so much more to them...especially my beloved Sebastian- who seems to get very little air-time...only because of the elusiveness of his Bright and Shining soul. it is he who has taught me the most - even more than my magical girl - yet the one who i seem unable to share. at least, not yet.
so i'm still around. i'm peeping in your windows and leaving wild honey on your doorsteps.....
....but mostly we're going to follow the wild drum-beat of our souls....into the woods for a while.
blessings and Light to you and yours.....